I had a really good day today. I’m so happy lately and things are going so well. I got to see Melanie in Eugene, opportunities are practically falling into my lap, I’m seeing Beirut this week and Gabbi’s coming up, Na-Moya’s spent the better part of the week at my place and I’m helping her unpack at her new place tomorrow, I’m seeing the sweetest guy, I love where I live and my roommates are the best, I’m making friends, and the sweetest cat in the world is cuddling the whole right side of my body as I type this. It’s 1:30am now so I’m starting to think, which means I should go to bed and wake up tomorrow anew, but I also want to get this out before I go to bed just so it’s off my brain.
I went to the store today with Na-Moya. Marcus, my ex-boyfriend’s roommate, works at the deli. I see him there sometimes and we always say hi to each other; today he gave us free samples. He said he was sorry for what happened with Caleb and told me now that the lease is up they don’t live together anymore. He said he thinks Caleb’s disgusting. He said he never liked how he treated me and that he never let it go while they lived together, but that Caleb would always laugh it off. He said he’s been bouncing from woman to woman every couple of weeks since he broke up with me, being super sweet at first, taking them to breakfast, watching the same movies he had me watch, the same routine every time, probably just using them for sex, affection, validation, whatever, then dumping them. Marcus said he’s selfish and only looks out for himself, only has enough room in his life for himself. It was good to hear him say that, but man, what an asshole. I wish it could become clear to him how wrong it is what he does to women, no doubt rushing them into sex, telling them what to do and how to do it, picking at their personalities and bodies and habits and interests and goals, making them insecure. I wish he cared enough to change. I wish he cared, period. I am happy I learned so much from that relationship, and I can only hope these other women learn from it. I really hope he’s not spreading around STIs with this behavior. I also really hope one of these women puts him the fuck in his place.
I’d also like to say I read one of his articles a few weeks ago and it was just really terrible, which was kinda satisfying since he thinks so much of himself, especially since you could tell he was trying to be creative with it. I feel kind of sorry for him in a way. Life’s so much better when you care about others and treat people well. I’m sure he’s still drinking every night.
I’m so glad he’s out of my life. More than that, and I’m proud of this fact, I’m so happy about where my life is going.